Just had a nasty thought

24th of March, my Dad died from a tumour on the brain.It was a very upsetting and undignified ending for him. He had had 3 or 4 months when he could not control his body and he found it extremely frustrating. His death came as a release as he was obviously not enjoying life anymore and, whilst it was a shock to us all, he had not suffered much pain, for which we were grateful. I was asked to do the eulogy during his funeral service, which was one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Halfway through the script, I looked at the coffin and just wondered, did I have something not very nice in my mouth ? Just a fleeting thought and I soon got back on track, but doubts were there.